#3- Too much going on

I've never actually thought that there could be 'too much' going on in my life. But here I sit, at 12:01 pm waiting for my friends to get up so I can go to lunch, and I am just thinking about things. And there is so much going on. But then I thought even more about these things going on and I realized that most of this stuff is happening to my friends.

Michelle is now and aunt.
Chelce's grandfather just died.
Claire is actually in college.
My group has way to much drama that I am not getting into.
Caleigh (and like, a million other people I know) is engaged.
and me? I'm spending almost every waking moment of my life fearing May 23.

All of these things are happening and I am missing out on them (or am ignorant to them) because I can't keep my mind off the fact that I have to leave my very best of friends in 125 days. I have realized that I need to stop fearing the future. I need to take the time I have with my friends and make it the best it can be. If I keep looking ahead then I am going to miss the good things that I can see if I just live in the present. Because, who knows, the future my never even come.

#2-The Sister

So, I was graced by the presence of my sister tonight. She and her boyfriend stopped in Muncie on their way down to my house for the weekend. We went out to eat at IHOP and then we just hung out for a bit at the Academy. I got to meet Patrick for the first time and he seems very nice. They got to meet and re-meet some of my friends at school.

It makes me sad now to think that she is 5 hours away. This is the first time I have seen her since August. But she and I talk on the phone all the time. But, next year I will be over an entire day away from her. I understand that when siblings grow up they don't always live close to each other. They get their own jobs and families and such.

When Claire and I were younger, about middle school, we decided that we were going to end up living on a ranch in Texas together. We would have the same mailbox but different houses and we would be far enough apart that we would have to ride our horses to see each other. :) Well, next year I will be going to Texas, and she will be staying in Michigan. I have no doubt that we will stay in close touch with each other, but the thought that I will only see her at Christmas time and in the summer, makes me a little sad.

#1-college and all that came before

As most if not all of you know, I have been accepted to Abilene Christian University in Abilene, Texas. I talked it all over with my parents this past weekend and it is almost official. All I have to do is sign the form and send them my deposit. I know I still have 193 days until graduation, but all these college/scholarship applications have been making me think a lot about the past 17 or so years of my life.

Three years ago I was a freshman who just finished her first Trimester (yeah...trimester) of high school. I was really close to my family and friends (especially those at church) and if someone had told me that I was going to be leaving home for the last two years of high school I would have called them crazy. And if someone had told me that I was going to be going to a College in Texas I would have laughed in their face.

But here I am. I am registering for a college that is 1040.04 miles away from my house (for those of you who plan on visiting me, get ready for a 15 hour and 50 min car ride). I don't know how I am going to handle it. But, I figure I will cross that bridge when I come to it. I need to enjoy the next 193 days. They are the last days I will spend with a lot of my friends here at the Academy. I don't want to waste time worrying about something that might not even come. God doesn't promise a tomorrow, so I need to cherish my todays.